I sometimes feel like i can not win for loosing anymore I have been threw alot this past year & it seems to me 2006 might just be the same way. Tiffney's wreck ended the New Year with a bang, Tiffney went to the doctor today fount out she has pulled ligaments in her right hand from when she was bracing herself from the wreck & the fight has begun again I finaly got the money off the Van fount Tiffney another car Thank Goodness... husband picked the car to death cause I fount it he didn't..Yea I am married but ya know i feel so alone right now, Scott moved in with us which is my oldest newph cause I am helping him get on his feet, he looked at me the other night & said you know Jeanette it does not take a rocket sciencest to figure out who does what around here I just laughed & said no it doesn't. I work 9-7 five days aweek & on my days off I am cleaning all day & then i stop & look at it few hours later looks as if I have not done anything. NO Roy does not help me with anything I am not asking for someone to feel sorry for me cause I guess I make my bed I am laying in it. I am so Sick of getting hurt I have been hurt alot lately between my closet friends to my family I am hoping with me writing this it will help me understand. Marina's car needs some work on it, Me & Marina has ask Roy to ask a friend of his how much he would charge us to do it but Roy has more excuses not to call. Well I finaly called 200.00 for labor which NO is not bad but I have a daughter that has been in a wreck trying to find her a car working full time & then i have another daughter who needs me. I know this sounds so werid coming out of my mouth but if your married I thought the other party helps the other person. I started this journel not to have pretty msic to play or lil pretty things on it or colors just to have some one to express how I am feeling.  I know I have picked the wrong friends to be friends with & I know I have done alot of things I wish I had not done but Ya know I am human I have always been one to help anyone in time of need, even Roy but where is he or anyone when I need them??  You know I am not asking for anyone to lend me money or buy me things cause I am the type of person I do not ask for anyone to give me or buy me anything but all I ask for is honestly & be my friend. My mom has been AWESOME!! I have cried on her shoulder so much here lately it is not funny. Sometime I just want to ask Y ME... I am planning a trip out of town with my girls & my best friend Staci I know I am going to have a Good time cause were going SHOPPING LOL !! no I am not out to spend money just window shop, and ya know I am at the point I do not care if I see anyone but the 4 walls in the hotel LOL at least I know I had some time for ME! & ME only...  I can Not wait until I find out how much I am getting back on my taxes needless to say it is already spent On helping Marina with her car & keep the family float... Some one said something to me the other day & I want to say it hurt me pretty bad...They said you have to much drama in yor life.. well I have to say NO I do not I am going to start this day by staying off the computer more offen maybe the drama is here & I am not seeing it.. Sure I will get on & play on pogo awww the site I love LOL... I so miss hanging out with people my age instead of sitting here @ home. I guess that person was right...Drama HA! I am so sick of fonny people..if you want to be my friend be my friend if you love me then love me for me not what I can do for you...

Welp If I do not post for awhile there is no need to wonder i will be ok just need to do some thinking..I know I made my friend Shane mad I guess I was bugging him 2 much.All I can say is I am sorry you do not have to worry about me bugging ya no more..  Maybe there is something wrong with me who Knows but I know I am not feeling sry for myself anymore I am going to start on Friday January 13 2006 doing things JUST!! alittle things differently

Staci, thanks for always being there for me you have always said we married the same guy HAHA maybe not the same but when comes to somethings your right but I do not look to keep mine as long as You have.. I am very strong headed person & stubborn as hell so all I am ending this by saying look out World I have been called a BITCH for the last time..if I am going to be called it I am going to BE A BITCH!!

If it helps at all I know how it feels to be doing EVERYTHING alone, to have it all on your shoulders. I also know how you are feeling when you say everything is going wrong. I myself am a single mom and yes I have a man that only works sometime, I am the sole provider for all 4 of us and when you are done working and come home to a house that looks like nobody did anything that makes it that much harder. i also made my bed and yes it appears we are lying in the beds we made for ourselves but I refuse to let it get me too down. What does not kill you makes you stronger I want you to know that although you have a nice sight with nice music and pictures there are also people on here that read and feel for what it is you are going through. Blogs are very therputic for me I really enjoy the people I have met on here. They give advice some good some bad but you always feel like you have someone to talk to. I dont know you other than reading your articles but I want you to know I am here for you if you need to talk. I hope you have a wonderful getaway I also am leaving on one today so when I come back I will again be checking on you. Take care! Your online bud Cindy

Hope you like this it is the only purple rose I have. If not just let me know and I will take it off for you.